I NEED YOU
“Be strong and of good courage, do not fear nor be afraid of them; for the Lord your God, He is the One who goes with you. He will not leave you nor forsake you.”
I feel like there are a number of people who might identify with the season and the kind of thinking I had to walk out of that eventually saw me write this song.
There was a time in my life, before writing this song, where I had tried really hard to walk through this life alone. I was convinced and believed the lie that the enemy had whispered for so many years, that doing life alone was my only real option. Even following God to me was something that I felt I had to do on my own. I had tried to change my own heart and develop godly character, I had tried to walk out of sin and sinful nature - all without accepting the help of Jesus or those He had placed around me for my benefit.
Around this time in my life, I was especially critical of myself and extremely hard on myself, particularly in moments and in areas where I felt I had fallen short and had failed in my feeble attempts at getting healed and free from my 'baggage'.
I have since come to realise that I had been looking at the world and at relationships through a lens of rejection, distrust and fear.
I love and honour my father, but unfortunately growing up, he was unable to be the father-figure I needed, which left me with some serious authority issues. Over time, I have come to know and understand God's heart for me and the purposes He has in appointing godly leadership, not only to have people to be accountable to and to learn from, but to love us, comfort us and guide us through the trials and tribulations that life with Him may bring. They aren't there to be controlling or judgemental and they ought to be in right standing with God, not abusing their position or influence. We need to be thankful for and utilise the leadership God has put in place.
“Fear not, for I am with you; Be not dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you, Yes, I will help you, I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.”
GOD WANTS TO BE OUR EVERYTHING
He doesn't want us to go through anything alone. He is ALWAYS there and gives us the grace we need to come into freedom and healing. After years of walking through life believing that 'alone' was the safest and best option for myself and those around me, I finally came to a place where the ache in my heart and the need I had far outweighed my fears. I had to humble myself, lay down my pride and ask God for help, and it was only then that I started to see real freedom and breakthrough in my walk with God.
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your paths.”
‘I Need You’ is one of the very first songs that God gave me. I didn't know much at the time, but I knew that I needed Him. I prayed and asked God to help me see this walk and this life through. I felt weary from the battle. Coming out of the world, picking up your cross and following Him isn’t an easy thing to do. The road is narrow. It’s a process, and it’s a long one!
The Lord knows our hearts. He knows when all we want to do is follow Him and He foresees all of the obstacles and temptations in our way. We need Him to help us see it through. Sometimes we can feed our emotions by giving into negative thoughts, and carrying guilt and shame of the past, and often we give into the lies of the enemy. We can’t do it alone, we NEED Him to take our hand and lead us through the fight.
Because, the fight IS on.
Not only is there a battle going on in our minds, but also there is a war in the spiritual realm every day for our souls. We can’t stay in pride and have a mindset that we can go through any part of life alone, we must humble ourselves and ask for His help. When we humble ourselves before our Lord, He is faithful to show us grace, to show us mercy and to fight the battles we face.
‘I Need You,’ has been my prayer, and my hope for you, whatever the season you may find yourself in, is that this too would become your prayer.
Reach out, know and trust that the God of the heavens will take your hand and help you see it through.
“And He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in needs, in persecutions, in distresses, for Christ’s sake. For when I am weak, then I am strong.”
In Love,
Hannah Fay.